A Balancing Act

This week I have felt like I have been walking a high-wire.....wobbling one way, catching my balance and walking straight for a bit, then wobbling the other way!

With only 7 days until the packers, Victoria came down with a fast and furious stomach virus, with a fever of 103.  She has been home for the last 3 days, but thankfully is better now and will return to school tomorrow.

Last night, Alex decided he "wanted" Victoria's fast and furious stomach virus, and has been sick all day, including the fever of 103.  His seems to be going away fast than Victoria's, and he's looking much better after only a day.

Just as I think "we are ok", I am starting to get sick. 

I have so much to accomplish in the next 4 days before the packers arrive, that I jsut do not have time to get sick.  Don't get me wrong, I know it's NEVER a "good time" to get sick, but this is DEFINITELY not the time.

In the midst of all the illnesses, I find myself  trying to balance my emotions.  I am so excited to get to Germany, travel, see old friends and meet new friends, but I also find myself feeling "bad" about going to Germany and being so far away from my family and friends here in the States.  I notice that the kids are feeling the same way.... excited about going, but scared to tell their "best buddies" they are excited, because they don't want to hrut their feelings or make them think they won't be missed.   

THIS is the part of being a miitary wife that is difficult - balancing the emotions and stressors of moves, with the excitement of God's plan.  I know there will be tears when we leave our friends, in just 12 days, and say good-bye to our family, but I also know that God is with me,and will carry me through the "storms of my life"!

I sit and think about all of this, the Casting Crown's song, "I'll Praise You in This Storm", comes to mind. 

The lyrics are:

Praise you in this storm

Casting Crowns

"I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down

and wiped our tears away,

stepped in and saved the day.

But once again, I say amen

and it's still raining

as the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain,

"I'm with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:

And I'll praise you in this storm

and I will lift my hands

for You are who You are

no matter where I am

and every tear I've cried

You hold in your hand

You never left my side

and though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind

You heard my cry to You

and raised me up again

my strength is almost gone how can I carry on

if I can't find You

and as the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills

where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

I lift my eyes onto the hills

where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus "

 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUWbmtbzDno
 
Praying for peace in the storm